Hello friends! After a very long break from blogging, I have decided to fill you all in on where I have been and what I have been up to. Since today is Sunday and I was doing a Spiritual Sunday post regularly, I figured this was a perfect day to do that since I just got home from church.
Almost seven months ago, I changed jobs and moved back to my old job that I had before I got married. At the time, it seemed logical to me to close that chapter of my life and move on to the next chapter. In hindsight, I had moments where I felt like I had moved backwards and regretted the decision to move jobs and leave all the friends I had made and my life there. It weight heavily on me for quite a few months and not a day went by that I did not think about or regret that choice. I can’t exactly tell you what it was or what day it was that my whole thought process had changed, but that happened roughly two weeks ago. I decided that I needed to suck it up and try and change my life and make choices to get back to being happy again because, as cliche as this is, life really is too short to be unhappy and I had brought myself into a dark, unhappy place that I did not want to be in. Aside from the decision to move, I had gone through a few other things in my personal life that just brought me further into that dark space that I just did not want to be in. There is no one in this world that will make you happy except YOU. To be happy in any relationship in life, you have got to make yourself happy first. If you don’t love your own company, how will anyone else love it?
Without going into too much detail, there came a day where I had finally had enough and made the decision to talk to someone. I have only had one appointment with a therapist, but it has impacted me in such a big way and just talking to someone about it made a world of difference. I am the type of person that is extremely independent and yes, I am stubborn. I do not ask for help and typically like (and don’t mind) doing things by myself. So for me to make the decision to get some kind of help was HUGE!! Since my first session, I also bought a couple of self-improvement books that I read a little bit from every day. Both of them have the same concept…it’s all in your own thinking. Positive thinking, yields positive outcomes. While I know that is not always the case, it has really helped me see things differently and one of the books called Find Your Happy by Shannon Kaiser, has a mantra for each day to motivate a happy, peaceful and fulfilling life. I start each morning reading the one for that day. Giving myself about 10 minutes every day to read that and listen to a short guided mediation on my Calm app has changed my outlook on my past decision and has me looking forward to what is to come.
With all of that happening, I also made the choice to go to graduate school and get my Masters in Business Administration. I know that I will not be happy continuing in my current profession for the rest of my life and I need something that challenges me daily and I feel like I have worked too hard, educationally, to stop where I am so at the end of this month I will start that journey. I am anxious and nervous because I know the courses will be challenging, require a lot of time and I will be working full-time while I do that. So stay tuned for posts about my educational journey as well as this new spiritual journey I am on. As always, thank you for reading and following along with me and my shenanigans! Stay tuned!