Where Have I Been? (journal style)

I know it has been an extremely long time since my last post.  Some of you may be wondering where I have been or if I was ever going to post again.  To be honest, I was not sure if I was going to post again or not.  If you have read some of my earlier posts, you might know that I have been through my share of changes and decisions.  I have been spending a lot of my time recently trying to decide what it is that I want to do with my life.  As cliche as it sounds, I truly have been spending time “finding myself.”

I have settled into a career that I no longer enjoy and that does not leave me fulfilled at the end of the day and that just does not challenge me anymore.  Since I am single with no children, the sky is the limit and there are many things that I could do and places I could go.  The only problem…I don’t know what to do about that.  I have never been the type of person that has known what they wanted to do after high school and what career they wanted (I envy you if you were that person).  I’m in my 30’s and STILL don’t know.  I have made many decisions in my past based on other people and never truly sat down to think about what I want for myself and what will make ME happy.  So I have decided to try and figure that out; however I needed to do that.  I like to do so many things and could not say that there is ONE thing that I would choose.  I have a few ideas, but nothing I have settled on just yet.  I am searching for that thing that makes me enjoy doing it and that makes me want to hop out of bed every day and go to work.  Yes, I am in search of “finding my passion.”  And before you think it, (if you haven’t already)  I am aware that I am in my 30’s and haven’t figured it out yet.

For once in my life, I am trying to figure out the best decision for me and what will make me truly happy without worrying about anyone else.  I do want to continue blogging and I plan on doing that.  As far as my career, that is yet to be determined.  There are a couple of things that are on my radar and I am in the process of pursuing those ideas to see where they take me.  Life takes us in so many different directions and many of us have an idea of how we would like our life to go, but things don’t always go as planned. As a matter of fact, they seldom do.  In my case they did not go as I had originally hoped and planned.  But that’s life and you have to keep rolling with the punches and trusting that something better is coming after all the setbacks and disappointments.  Year after year my plans and thoughts have changed as far as what I thought I wanted out of life and I think that’s just a part of growing up and experiencing life.  I have learned to be okay with not having what I thought I would at this point.  I truly believe that things happen for a reason and we are where we are for a bigger purpose.  Yes, i am still trying to find out my purpose as well and that is what I am focusing on and have been for a few months.

I thank you for being patient with me and hope you stick around for more blogs in the future.  And if you are or have been in the same boat as I am currently, I would love to hear from you and how you overcame that and found your passion.